The important things never change. Maybe that's not so bad after all.

It's human nature to want what you can't have. It's normal to think the grass is always greener on the other side. Everyone wishes they could live the life of other people's pictures. But I think I'm slowly learning to just sit back and enjoy the ride called my life.

I didn't even realize how burned out I was until this past month. I moved to NYC at the end of August and hadn't returned to TX since. That's the longest amount of time I've ever gone without being home and surrounded by my closest friends and family. I would wake up in a fog, work until night, go home, close the door to my room, sleep, and do it all over again. I had lost my sparkle. I doubted everything. I missed everyone. Mostly, I wanted to go home.

Coming back to TX made me realize how truly blessed I've always been. I guess it only took me 8 months and half a country to recognize the beauty and uniqueness of TX and how amazing my friends are. Or maybe they were just nicer since they missed me, too? hehe. It was a perfect vacation that couldn't have come at a better time. Even my cancelled flight to NYC and 24 hr layover in Chicago had a silver lining! I got to see Jenn! What a surprise!

Thank you Gracie for being my saving grace. =)
Thank you Jennie for....everything.
Thank you Daniel for the hug and the jacket, it only took you...5 years? =P
Thank you Steve for not remembering my voice, but at least my giggle.
Thank you Jenn for skipping your meeting to wait for me. You were worth the delay.

I feel rejuvenated and refreshed. I'm ready to get back to work and handle everything New York throws my way. Not that I hadn't thoroughly enjoyed the city, but something was just...missing. I realize it was all in my outlook. I kept comparing it to my old life at UT with my old friends. I think I'm ready to grow up, move on, and let life lead the way. True friends will always be there despite time and distance. It's nice picking up right where we left off. =) The important things never change. I've always wanted more than what Dallas and Austin had to offer, and now I'm wondering if that's what prevented me from really embracing it.  

Now I can slowly learn to love NYC and adulthood (yikes!). Thank you, Texas.  

 

Isn't it ironic that I moved all the way to the city and am craving to get out now? These past couple weekends were so necessary for my sanity and peace of mind. Killington, VT and D.C. were exactly what I needed. Getting away can be such balm for the soul. And great friends don't hurt either. =)

Killington, VT - Snowboarding with Wei-Fu and Co.

    

    

     

Washington D.C. - Cherry Blossom and Kite Festival with Stephanie

    

    

    

    

    

Let's runaway and join the circus

One more thing I can check off my "Things I Want To Do At Least Once In My Life" List: TRAPEZING!

I totally sucked (i.e. I did everything your body should NOT do), but it was still such a rush and I totally want to do it again! Who's in?? It's a great "snow day" activity. =)

If you thought the Drag had a lot of drag rats, you've never visited NYC before. I've watched a homeless guy piss on himself and get stoned in the subway. Needlesss to say the stench was amazing. They sit on our door step and I have to bump them with my door in order to get out of my apt. But, you'd at least think your workplace would be safe, rt? NOT.

My vendor told me today that a homeless guy somehow strolled into the Ralph Lauren Black Lable showroom Friday night, tried on all the women's clothing, raided the kitchen...and then proceeded to poop on the floor. He was there for 2 hrs and everything was caught on tape...but where were the security guards watching the cameras?! Makes me hesitant to work late in the city...